Just like everyone else and just what social media is for, I only post the high lights and the best that goes on in my life. Go onto my Instagram. It looks like I’m always fit and eating healthy and happy. Those are just posed, mere seconds of my whole day/life. If I really shared what went on in between…well, that’s why sometimes I feel like an impostor or a fraud.
If you’ve seen my Instagram post for my goals for February and the next few months on my motivational board. You would think I’ve got it all together. Far from it. I’ve been struggling for the last two weeks but still posting on Instagram like everything is fine. I’ve been struggling with doing PIIT28 consistently and practicing for my POP classes as well as following the 28 day reset or just eating clean in general.
I’ve always struggled with staying consistent with anything. Doing blogilates/POP Pilates has been the most consistent I’ve been despite still being inconsistent at the same time. This isn’t the first time I feel like I’m I’m failing and flailing around. Somehow I get through it and get back on track but this struggle is real. The struggle of feeling like I’m falling down a black hole and can’t see how I’ll climb back out again.
It’s so easy to just tell myself “What the heck, I’ve already skipped a workout and binged on chocolate the other day I should just quit altogether or not even try.” “It’s too late. It’s no use.” I have a mind battle with myself at these moments and some days I win and some days I lose.
As women, I don’t know what you go through but for me I get really bad PMS. My PMS starts at least 2 weeks before my period actually comes (sorry if it’s tmi). It’s like a dark cloud is over me that just won’t go away. I’m fine and can still function and enjoy life but it’s still hovering over me. And not to mention the ravenous hunger I start to feel. Argh! Being a woman isn’t easy right?? Can you imagine every month I’m fine for 2 weeks and then the next 2 weeks I have to fight my emotions. I get through most months fine. Then there are months like this month where I’m just losing it. Life plus this…it’s just a recipe to down spiral.
I honestly hate talking about PMS and don’t like to use it as an excuse/reason but its just a fact I face. And above all, I want to talk openly about my struggles. I want to make it known as a fact that I do struggle. It’s not easy to take the next step and to make the choices we know are right and good for ourselves. I wish my whole life was just what is portrayed on social media but it is not and that’s OK.
I know the blogilates/PIIT community I have come to love will accept and understand me. And I want them to know too that they are not the only ones struggling. I want you to know I love and accept you whether you show your good or struggling side on social media or not. And I know you do the same for me.
I just want to leave with these two quotes that came up just when I needed it. I know I’ll be all right! I’ll see you when the going gets tough and also when things are going great!
What are you current struggles? We can get through this!